August 16, 2018 by Kayce L.
Sharing at meeting use to be my favorite thing. As I live in a small town I have come to realize my home group takes what I share and harps on it for weeks as if I'm going fall off the wagon or worse. I use to feel as if this was my safe place. Lately I feel judgement and misunderstanding in my peers in this group. I took a little time off and return to retackle and I was uncomfortable. I'm realizing I need to attend different meetings near me and see what better suits me. I've known these people for almost 9 years in my sobriety and it use to be a safe place to share. Is this me over reacting or me judging them
I will venture out and attend new meeting to see if my recovery can grow. Right now I feel stagnate in a circle of unhealthy recovery. Meditation has relieved me from most of my worries. Has anyone ever felt this way. Thanks
God id good
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June 27, 2018 by Kayce L.
This step is exactly what I needed to go back to in my recovery. In life's chaos we can get vulnerable to fear, anger, jealous, and just emotions all together.
I have found myself hung up on resentments and fear. My higher power had me listening to my meeting last night, big book study. Step 10 brought me back where I needed to remember to spot check inventory of myself.
Doing a spot-check inventory is when you have an emotional disturbance. This is a quick, spur-of-the-moment inventory concerned with day-to-day problems. It helps to silence volatile emotions, build character and promote a positive way of life.
Avoid making quick-tempered decisions; train yourself to take a step back and breathe.
Survey your situation honestly.
Admit when you’re wrong.
Forgive others when they’re wrong.
Focus on progress, not perfection.
When we take a moment and do this in hard times of our lives. We can get back on track and love ourselves and the ones we love.
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June 4, 2018 by Kayce L.
Acceptance over expectations is key in my recovery. It's also the hardest.
When it comes to trusting someone, what they say or do is very hard after ones lost the trust in someone. Taking some situations one day at a time. I do my best to Accept what is and not Expect anything. Loving someone you don't trust is very hard. So I have to trust in myself and my higher power to keep me strong and guide me through these times of distrust. I put my acceptance above my expectations.
Meetings and my sponsor help me in the weakest moments. Keep it simple everyone.
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May 29, 2018 by Kayce L.
It has been a while since my last post. With many recovering alcoholic/addicts life gets busy and we get idle on putting recovery first. I realized I was getting into a dry drunk mode. My mental state has slowly gotten back into old behaviors. Last night I sat down and took an inventory and realized new character defects that I was showing. I had not been grateful. So I wrote a gratitude list and did some reading on recovery. It's something we can not afford to do is forget we need our meetings. We need others like us in recovery. A gratitude for life. For family. For sobriety. Today, I will put myself back on the rails. And I am grateful for every moment I have sober.
Remember. Step 10-11 and 12. Daily.
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April 10, 2018 by Kayce L.
Like a loud alarm clock, the First Step brings us to semi-consciousness—although at this point, we may not be sure whether we want to climb out of bed or maybe sleep for just five more minutes. The gentle hand shaking our shoulders as we apply the Second and Third Steps causes us to stand up, stretch, and yawn. We need to wipe the sleep from our eyes to write the Fourth Step and share our Fifth. But as we work the Sixth, Seventh, Eighth, and Ninth Steps, we begin noticing a spring in our step and the start of a smile on our lips. Our spirits sing in the shower as we take the Tenth and Eleventh Steps. And then we practice the Twelfth, leaving the house in search of others to awaken.
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April 9, 2018 by Kayce L.
Praying only for knowledge of His will for us and the power to carry that out.
Always set aside some quiet time to “talk” with your Higher Power. Pray and ask for that Power’s direction and the ability to act on it. Gratitude is key.
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January 12, 2018 by Kayce L.
Thank you for keeping me straight yesterday. Please help me stay straight today.
For the next twenty-four hours, I pray for knowledge of your will for me only, and the power to carry that through. Please free my thinking of self-will, self-seeking, dishonesty, and wrong motives. Send me the right thought, word, and action. Show me what my next step should be.
In times of doubt and indecision, please send me your inspiration and guidance. I ask that you might help me work through all my problems, to your glory and honor.
This prayer is a recovery prayer. It can take us through any situation. In the days ahead, we'll explore the ideas in it. If we pray with prayer, we can trust it has been answered with a yes. Today trust that God will do for us what we cannot do for ourselves. Do your part, work your 12 steps and let God do the rest.
This prayer is based on a section of the Big Book of Alcoholics Anonymous.
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December 5, 2017 by Kayce L.
Gratitude, in recovery is essential. Without it we can easily get spiritually off track. I myself have let my gratitude slip behind my everyday life. I got complacent. Things in everyday life for me a recovering alcoholic/addict isn't something I can do without my program, my meditations, my meetings and most of all my sponsor. I will have 8 years, January 9th and I have found myself without gratitude. I allowed myself to put my kids, my husband, and my job before my recovery without realizing it. So I sat down and wrote out a gratitude list, and after years in recovery I realize I am grateful for so many things, even more then in my first year of recovery. It helped me get things in prospective. I went to a meeting, read some meditations, talked to my sponsor and started putting the 12 steps in to my everyday life. Sometimes life gets busy and you can think you got this. If you ever realize that your spiritual fitness is slipping and your attitude of gratitude has been placed behind everything else in life, the hopelessness, loneliness, isolation, and anger can take over. Attend a meeting, talk to your sponsor, read and pray. Recovery is an amazing journey and keeping that attitude of gratitude is key to a healthy mind and soul.
Any one wanna share any of their attitudes of gratitude? Please share.
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September 25, 2017 by Kayce L.
It is easy to blame our problems on others. We probably are feeling hurt and frustrated.We need to acknowledge our own feelings. We feel the anger, then we let go of the feelings and find peace within ourselves. We call it acceptance.
We decide that although we'd like our situation to be different, maybe our life is happening this way for a reason. Maybe there is higher purpose and plan in play, one that's better than we could have orchestrated. We call this faith.
Then we decide what we need to do, what is within our power to do to take care of ourselves. That's called recovery.
It's easy to point our finger at another, but it's more rewarding to gently point it at ourselves.
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September 4, 2017 by Kayce L.
Emotional balance comes with practice in prayer and meditation. We get quiet and share our thoughts and hopes and concerns with the God of our understanding. Then we listen for guidance, awaiting the power to act on that direction.
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