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December, 2018

  1. Daily Reprieve

    December 28, 2018 by Kayce L.


  2. Sharing Struggles

    December 25, 2018 by Kayce L.

    The end of the year is the perfect time to reflect.

    In my recovery, I have discovered it’s hard to share in most meetings. I struggle in that factor. I have decided to share on this blog what I struggle with.

    As I have been growing in recovery of alcoholism and addiction, I also have found myself emotional and spiritual bankrupt at times.

    As I rediscover myself, I also rediscover some difficult underlining issues that I have not yet addressed. Fear, resentment and loneliness.

    I struggle with sharing these issues on a daily bases. Gratitude and humility are all I can grasp at some days. Even then my defects can quickly make me consumed in fear. As my children get older, the need for me is less. I remarried their dad and their is infidelity fears. Thoughts of loneliness when I look to how things really are. I am seeing differences in personality and goals for the future. I have meditated and read up on a lot of my issues and seem to be holding in more then I ever thought. I ask myself am I happy? Are they happy? Can I continue in this insanity? Who am I?

    Prayers and meditation. Thanks for letting me share.

    Merry Christmas everyone. I am grateful today. Sober today. And blessed to be able to be the person I am today through the program.

    God bless

  3. Happy Holidays

    December 24, 2018 by Kayce L.

    This time of year everyone around me is busy, overwhelmed and most of the time, stressed.

    I always worried myself about making everything perfect. This year I am taking it easy. One day at a time. Trying to please everyone has put me in a unfocused place in my recovery., in the past years. This year I’m focusing on me.

    January, I will be 9 years sober. And I find myself feeling like the ones around me have forgotten how hard I have been fighting a battle within myself. Just mainly for validation and support still.

    I also have to realize. They aren’t in this battle. I am. I get wrapped up in the whole taking care of the family that I let my spirituality get thrown off course.

    Meetings and surrounding myself with other recovering alcoholics helps me stay grounded and feel loved. I have to stay connected.

    Meeting makers make it. One day at a time.

    Everyone Happy Holidays! And Happy New Year!

    Grateful for another year sober.