Dealing with life sober is a very hard thing to do at first. A year ago my 21 year old nephew died of an overdose. It was painful to see all the young people who loved him morn over his casket. I just wanna shake them all and tell them how this disease is the devil. I dealt with my disbelief and pain through the program. It's such a hard thing for our young family and friends to see the forever damage of drugs and alcohol. Today I'm grateful I live in a more peaceful, controlled life and it's all due to the 12 steps and great sponsor also the knowledge of this disease I have. Keep it simple. One day at a time.